We reviewed our websites as a group this afternoon and inched a little closer to the close of the semester. Each day is equal parts hurry-up-lets-do-this and but-this-time-next-year.... I am anxious for some downtime and also keenly aware that the end of grad school draws ever near. And that I will miss this.
Perhaps not this. Not the crunch of final crits, hurried deadlines, lax self-care and heaps of dirty laundry mocking me from the corner of my bedroom (a constant reminder that I have that to do as well, so hop to it!). I will not miss having my entire day stacked dawn to dusk with appointments, commitments, classes and such.
I will miss those last minute inspirations. I will miss selecting yarns for my own work. I will miss the camaraderie of the studio and the intimacy of sharing creation processes with classmates and professors. From undergrad I miss group crits where everyone spoke, even when it was to contribute negative feedback. I will miss the veritable safety net of creating with freedom, without the fetters of "will this get me a job." Cause that's a pretty awesome and unique experience.
When the days are crazy and time is short I feel the need to remind myself of the things that made me want to come back to school in the first place. There are things I will miss. By acknowledging them now I have the opportunity to soak it up just a little better.
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